yeah.IT'S OVER.GOTTEN OVER AND DONE WITH.this is realli the 1st time tt i've felt so much sorrow, when hope no longer shone like a shining star. my heart was crammed full of ice, i felt as if tt i was at the north pole, a land of complete darkness.crying doesn't take me away frm reality, which is much more painful to bear.i dun have to cry to show my anguish but my heart is ripped apart all the same. what coach said while i was walking towards the bus has left me stumped.i'd no idea what made her say tt, but half of it was sickeningly true.onboard, emotions engulfed me.did my best, balls arent for me.there was only emptiness present.sleeping has made it worse. it certainly doesn't pay to be at the wrong end.

okay peeps, tml[thurs] WILL be the TURNING POINT of the season.dun feel too pressurised...PLAY UR LUNGS OUT n do not live to regret the way u play tml.we hab to keep track tt to advance to top8, we need to win rgs by 5 pts and more.this is the time when we either do or die, so everyone must play their parts well.i admit tt my rebounds have been atrocious so i'll put in 120% of efforts.[in other words, i'll fight till the very end]

NCHS BBALL [jiayou!!]x3

[WE CAN DO IT.IT IS NOT A MIRACLE BUT IT IS THRU OUR OWN EFFORTS THAT BROUGHT US HERE.]

Sunday, March 26, 2006, 3/26/2006 03:56:00 pm

maybe u r ritex...im not gonna let this down after all. i've tried so hard yet got so far, might as well finish this ugly piece of 'art' in my life. i've always felt neglected but i chose not to voice out, for fear tt the situation might become more chaotic.haix.im no longer what i used to be anymore.i used to think tt things would turn out fine, but it wasnt meant to be.now, what i perceive is not part of my thoughts.thinking what would the others do n react before i speak my mind. im lost.so, as of now, im not going to be the mentally weak person as i was before.

I want to be strong n to be myself.dun belittle me.

Sunday, March 19, 2006, 3/19/2006 11:54:00 am

whoa.just restored my internet after 10,000yrs[actually its 7mths]haha.Life's always e same.GEDDIT?! the same....arrgh.im pissed over everything, but hab to curb my feelings at the same time, fer fear tt all hell will break lose n i end up getting chopped up.lol.[i noe its fake, but gimme a chance at the oscars, will ya?]
ACTUALLY, i've nth to write abt, so tis is just crap. cya.