ARGH.

i wan to cry. cos of hyperthyroidism. AGAIN =.=
was finishing my studio project alrdy. when suddenly, my heartbeat became very irregular.
in short, heart palpitations...
whole body no strength, nt even enough to walk from my hse to skcc
okay,
what worried me more was that even after taking extra propanonol,
the palpitations didn't stop..
bo bian, had to see doc.
my poor mum rushed back from lunchtime to sk polyclinic,
where i was told to go immediately at the nurse's request.
it was so freaking anxious time for me.
in the end, the doc said my pulse was fine. but i dont feel fine at all.
in fact, i felt like im gonna have a heart attack soon.
went to do blood test. results out tmrw.

spent the whole afternoon worying about how to explain my absence to the tutor when im supposed to be in sch for presentation..
thank you nora for helping me inform the tutor =)
think im gonna see ms gail tmrw, ask whether i could be allowed to present my work.
and loads of ppl asked me whether im going back to nchs tmrw.
afterall, its TEACHERS' DAY =))
but, im going only when there's enough time for me to go, that is.

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fcuked up day again. dunno why nowadays liddat..

9am, supposed to have comm skills test. supposed to be held at LT-S2. supposed to enter the LT smoothly. butbutbut...the most ridiculous thing of all things in the entire universe happened to me. i dunno how it happened, but i wrote LT-M2 instead -.- which is sooo GREAT laas. GREAT as in i confirm fail the test le. why leh? cos although i was late for 15mins, i spent entire 45mins searching the LT's at blkM&L just to take the test. just when i thought that calling alicia might help me to know the venue, she was actually AT HOME. LOLS la. she more blur than me, forgot that there's test today lo =)tried calling all the girls in my class, but none picked up.[which i expected cos they were, after all, having the test =( ] just when i gave up hope, i bumped into victoria. went for drawing tut with her, but at 10plus, the door was locked. which means that edwin ng havent arrived. asked victoria pei me go search again[she nvr take comm skills] den finally found the place. almost cried la. left 15mins only, den i'm still allowed to take the test. *im really thankful to the nice lady lecturer there* was so ashamed of myself, allow this kind of thing to happen to me =( hais..

den went for drawing tut. peiyun helped me peek at my results so far, and sad to say, all i ever had was D+'s all the way, with 1 F -.-" jia lat lo. i really hope i wun retain...i want to promote to yr 2 de.! went downstairs to photocopy the scanned image, den the auntie at blkR laugh at my work.! @#$^%& was so embarassed that i quickly go back drawing rm with jia wen. fcuk la.

den smth happened in VASTR lect oso. watched some good&funny videos. den sherlyn tang said she had a RUDE SHOCK. ME&JIA WEN as well. our clip was shown 1st, den another was shown. both ARE so similar in terms of the editing part and the storyline oso quite similar laas. den she say she suspect either me&jiawen copy the other grp work or the 2guys[who produced the other clip from another grp/class] copy ours. super stunned can?! we confirm do the things by ourselves, can make cheryl&peiyun our alibi la. den summore we're in her class lehs..she shuld know whether we got copy anot wad.. she questioned both grps, den said that if nobody admit, both grp the grades will suffer.still nobody admit, den she say prove our innocence by showing her our process...which were all saved into the com lab. those 2 guys really like shit man.! really felt like screaming at them in front of ms tang sia.. i mean, WTH?! i really dun believe that so much BAD things will happen all in a day, but i was wrong. it goes to show that when u're really unlucky on a particular day/wk/mth, u'll be unlucky till u exhaust the aura residing u =((
never expected to have so much unwanted problems crop up in a day.

by the time we finished, alrdy ard 2plus le. couldn't meet up with REESSSVY AGAIN. i'm really disappointed..always want to meet but like not fated to meet liddat..
went to little india with cheryl,peiyun,jiawen&renee. walked around to take pics of indian things there, stopped by tekka mall, ate kaciang puteh. and that's the only happy thing that happened.
took mrt back home, walked past nan chiau pri and saw my 4th auntie. was asked to bring my cousin's bag home, apparently she's taking my cousin to the esplanade to watch' The king&I" concert. 0.o while waiting, she probed about my father's affairs. and frankly speaking, my father's jobless again after 1wk. so now he's at home, pestering me every morning. i still dun get what he really wants from me.-.- den frm there, can chat till bball...the topic's exhausted alrdy x_x

today is national day eve..
tmrw's national day..
friday's codid presentation, which i dun even noe whether i'll be given chance to present anot -.- all my fault.
sat's training at 9am..

Labels: HAIS..nvr seen such a FCUK-ed up day before..

word of the day: WAD THE HELL.?!

missed 159 again.waited 1/2hr for next bus. super late for desfd lect, got back assignment. D- o.o" okay, that was unexpected even though it was late by 15mins -.- hais.
ate lunch with cheryl,peiyun,jiawen,nora&andrew at koufu den rushed down to sk polyclinic..

my mum reserved a place in the queue, but still had to wait for the consultation. 1st time i was so anxious and scared that i cannot behave normally. eg: keep fidgeting,walking,arguing with my parents etc. even the vending machine's grape juice didn't help at all. waited super long for consultation and when i went in and came out, it was totally 2 different feelings. went in, the doc said that my hormone lvl is quite low[according to the blood test]. mine was very high previously, so i been at the highs and lows of hormone lvls, but nvr the normal range -.-" okay, that's not the point. then the doc said: i think the medicine is too effective for you. so i'll lower dosage. SO THERE'S NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT...

wa lao eh. when i heard those words, i was super stunned la. how come the nurse say as if my condition very jia lat, den the doc say that my condition got improve?! the difference like heaven&hell la. RIDICULOUS! to think that i nvr slp ytd night cos i was worrying abt the verdict.! den i asked the doc all the symptoms that i spotted plus whether i am fit enough to play ball, and he said that i was perfectly fine -.- OMG. so i worried for nothing. wth. almost fell asleep while waiting for medicine.

*faints*

to those that have read my previous post/know of my worries, a BIG THANK YOU for all your concern...=)

was chiong-ing vastr the whole day with the usual gang. then came a call from my mum at 5.45pm.

she said: 'the nurse call me, ask me bring you to see him by this week.'

i panic and said: 'why? is it my condition worsen anot?'

she said: i asked alrdy, but the nurse just say ask me bring you go see the doc either tmrw/wednesday beacuse the doc want to talk to you'

i almost dropped the phone can?! its so soo...sudden... i'm supposed to see him next wednesday and the way the nurse talk is like smth bad has happened to me. REAl BAD. I'M SERIOUS =(

i can't help it but to think of the worst possible answers from the doctor's mouth tmrw afternoon. i can imagine him saying that:
1) yanling...u'll NEVER play basketball again.
2) your life is in grave danger
3) your condition has worsened and u've contracted some other illness along the way
4) your condition has worsened drastically and u need an operation. IMMEDIATELY.
5) your heart's beating 2 times faster than normal people and it'll shorten ur life

after these analysis, i really scared of tmrw laas. can someone out there help me? a menace has intruded on my heart. as i type these happenings, my hearts beating 3 times faster than the average person =( really feel like crying....how'd this happen in the space of 1 week after blood test??!

Labels: i dread tmrw's coming

POL-ITE CUP's over..
lesser trainings..
more time to do hmwrk & slp..
packed full of goodness =p

ms tang allowed me&alicia to take VASTR test tmrw at 1pm.
WOOT!~
den prior to that, DESFD was last lesson alrdy.
spent 1/2 the lesson time doing quizzes & course feedback surveys =)
guess wad? i absolutely disagree with anything to do with CODID. LOLS!
other modules was okay.
i gave edwin ng some face..lmaos..actually he quite okay la, only when it DOESN"T concern hmwrk..
classic example today:
he lost my assignment 3B la, the outdoor drawing -.-
so i've got to draw another one for him to grade -.-
TIAN ARH~
these are results of the quiz. so gay-ed CAN? MUAHAHAS

You Are 90% Creative

You are an incredibly creative person. For you, there are no bounds or limits to your creativity. Your next creation could be something very great... Or at least very cool!

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all menYou are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

You Are 84% Pure

You're so pure ... you make a nun look like a whore!There's a lot of life's dark side left for you to experience... if you want to.

You're SO Stupid

You got 2/10 questions right!You are an embarrassment to the human race. Seriously.

You Are Bart Simpson

Very misunderstood, most people just dismiss you as "trouble." Little do they know that you're wise and well accomplished beyond your years. You will be remembered for: starring in your own TV show and saving the town from a comet Your life philosophy: "I don't know why I did it, I don't know why I enjoyed it, and I don't know why I'll do it again!"

You Are 12 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Your Superpower Should Be Manipulating Electricity

You're highly reactive, energetic, and super charged.If the occasion calls for it, you can go from 0 to 60 in a split second.But you don't harness your energy unless you truly need to.And because of this, people are often surprised by what you are capable of. Why you would be a good superhero: You have the stamina to fight enemies for days Your biggest problem as a superhero: As with your normal life, people would continue to underestimate you

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image.On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex.You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time.Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

Your Aura is Green

You're very driven, competitive, and even a bit jealous.However, you seek out balance in your life - and you usually achieve it! The purpose of your life: inspiring others to be better Famous greens include: Tony Robbins, Donald Trump, Martha Stewart Careers for you to try: Guru, CEO, Talk Show Host

You Are 4: The Individualist

You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel. At Your Best: You are inspired, artistic, and introspective. You know what you're thinking, and you can communicate it well. At Your Worst: You are melancholy, alienated, and withdrawn. Your Fixation: Envy Your Primary Fear: To have no identity Your Primary Desire: To find yourself Other Number 4's: Alanis Morisette, Johnny Depp, J.D. Salinger, Jim Morrison, and Anne Rice.

LMAOS! so long since i did quizzes. fun sia~

kk...gotta chiong for CODID,DRAWING, & VASTR test =)

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OMG!!!!! my GARFIELD'S gonna be thrown into the washing machine..!

JIA LAT

*says prayers*

went for blood test just now. X_X
damn suay laas, reach sk polyclinic got loooonnngloooonnng queue.
why leh?
apparently the queue ticketing machine broke down, queue sequence jumbled up at pharmacy and payment sections -.-
so in short, entire 1st floor broke down.
and this is like- 3rd breakdown in 2 weeks alrdy?!
last week oso breakdown when i reach there. imagine the suayness. Argh
waited patiently under the hot sun for 15mins, and all just to take a queue no. for laboratory
damnit.! i dun even need to see doctor lo. still must wait for bloody no.
perhaps they really should let those who go lab only, dunnit see doc de, ALL get queue no. from the lab itself.
what a bummer.
never mind abt this, the nurse poke the needle 2 times into my veins -.-"
so unprofessional sia. ppl take 1 time to find the right vein, u take 2 times. suay zhong zi suay arh~
make payment oso got problem.
i had to become translator for an ah peh and the cashier, who was GAN pek chek with everyone asking her when can they take medicine & make payment.
after that, went upstairs to find my mum, oso sick.
den got 1 rich taitai keep on pestering the nurses abt the waiting time.
keep on saying that" AMK very fast de.! take medicine & payment only 5mins, here LEH, take more than 1hr"
the nurse shrugged then siam her lo. poor thing sia.
if i'm the nurse, i'll shoot her, tell her that" AMK so gd, u go there la, dun waste time complaining at sk arh!~"
ahem. i sound so frustrated here. LOLS.
went to cp,ta pao BK back to skcc, almost stepped onto 1 puddle of vomit in the lift la. the ba wu gaogao one. >.<
go home oso suay, walk halfway, rain poured down on me.
what a KNN morning.


hais.


sometimes, i really wonder why things turn out liddat.
perhaps i shuld find my lucky star.
in bball, i'm definitely still not up to standard.
always do things halfway when box-out & rebounds nt enuf.
under basket oso can miss. WTH.
in sch, always LATE.
lects,tutorials,assignment, WADEVER..
not concentrated bahx.
THATS not an excuse.
friends wise, i always end up doing all the sai kang work when ppl feel depressed/quarrel with one another.
when i dun even noe how to console them laas. omg lo.
family leh, always on the receiving end of a scolding.
take this for example.
my ah ma supposedly went MIA on saturday morning.
spent 2hr looking for her, in the end, she was with my 4th uncle at ncps, chatting happily and bio-ing my little cousin at sch.
i kena scolding from my parents for nothing.
FED UP.!
at home, even the electronic appliances take it out on me -.-
MP3,alarm clock,bag,gameboy, ALL SPOIL.
use toaster oven ytd, and it BROKE DOWN halfway.
of all times, break down when i toasting McChicken burger leftovers HALFWAY ytd.
ended up not eating anything for lunch =(


okay, enough of my whinings. BUT, all i wanted to say was...
TIAN ARH~...
pls make gd things come in TRUCKLOADS when all these SUAYNESS go away.
*FAINTS*

Labels: things like these make up the world -.-