woke up at 7am today..
ruth came to my hse to borrow my chinese dictionary.
jia you for ur A lvl chinese.!
ate breakfast,
read newspaper.
slept again, until 5pm 0.o
dinner next door..
followed by trip to compass point
bought sketchbook and plastercine for storyboard
went to best denki to take a look at the digital cameras.
as usual, i'm slapped with a budget from my parents,
when i'm the one who's paying for the entire electronic device, not them.
ate hot fudge sundae..
walked home, missed the chance of taking 372 before it changes route on sunday..
ate hip hop jelly,
which tastes great!
ages since i've eaten one..=)
my father started his rantings upon reaching home
really pissed off with him.

tmrw, having dinner with coach & team nyp.
trying hard to find suitable clothes for me to wear tmrw.
although its 12.16am now,
i'm ready for breakfast. =.=
Oh SHIT.! i just realised,
i've not eaten my pills.
brb


okay, im back.
lets continue =)


i'm fcuking tired of lies, deceit & betrayal..
is there anyone out there in the world who is pure & good on the inside?
or perhaps im too naive or what?
too many words aren't meant to be typed/spoken
cos i know that they will be hurting to the core..

i think its time to let loose the imprisoned me.
i've had enough of having to accomodate other ppl in my entire life alrdy.
perhaps i should find a channel to vent my frustrations
like, maybe talk to garfield?
after all, its been ages since i've talked to teddy bears..
at least they dun talk back,
and can keep secrets, since their mouths are shut.
the last time i've done that was when i was 8 yrs old,
having done smth terrible..

i'm not feeling mentally right at the moment. =)



i'm all jumbled up with various feelings at the moment..
issues regarding
my dad,
hyperthyroidism,
bball trg,
my aunt next door,
homework,
handphone,
digital camera,
and 101 other things which ppl consider as "MUDANE"
but does anyone know that these small things are things that trip us up most of the time?
nope.

yeah, he's my dad,
but he just makes me not want to come home...
P.S. i'll not li jia chu zou, dun worry
really dunno where to start from,
since i've always known that i have problems channelling my thought into words
ever since young..
hais.
furthermore, i'm damn damn damn sick of eating thyroid pills everyday.
i still dont see any signs of improvement at all.
bball wise,
only one word: FAINTs
my aunt?
she's the epitome that embraces the likes of ppl who plays mind games.
i always have to keep myself in check whenever i'm speaking to her.
otherwise i'll be tricked into saying things which arent true in context. =x

sometimes, i pretend not to know about things..
when i perfectly know why/how things turned out to be like that
its not that i just cant be bothered/do it on purpose.
its just that i don't want to make things even worse than before.

feeling very bottled up now.
*screams out loud*

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been downright moody the whole week. most probably due to pms bahs..
but thats not an excuse.!

was late for studio project on monday,
heng ms wendy waited for me. lol.
had extremely boring typo lect and usual storyboard lect =)
followed by mr baktha's storyboard tut..

typo & intro 3D tut on tuesday,
after which gatecrashed elain&edwina's lect wit chunli =)
conclusion: sidm's lect are more interesting..
met ms patricia tan tgt with alicia...
all abt the failing modules thingy. =X
now im on "standby" mode to repeat 1 yr...
OH MY GOD!! pls do smth to help me get over this hurdle..
i promise i'll be a chiongster in hmwrk from now onwards..
just dont let me kena kicked out from the course...=(
trg at indoor court, played games then some light trg..
i still cant shoot properly.!
-faints-

early morning animation tut with ms pat..
was 1/2hr early, ate at macs by myself.
lonely sia..
but i think animation is damn interesting =)
although have to waste alot paper -.-
went home, saw the new 372 route which starts on this sunday
then met nyp ballers at novana mrt stn
got friendly with MOH..
and the court is super ulu& far..
but the court surface not bad laas =)
performance wasn't so gd..
i think im trying too hard

went for blood test..
digital imaging tut with ms stephanie..
followed by animation&digi lect..
1st time sit tgt with alicia during lect.!
LOL
sat too high up, so the bloody speakers partially blocked my view -.-"
friendly with ITE simei..
and coach is right about me..
really cannot focus..
yanling, whr are u????
-floats around-
came home and entered a 'war zone'
shall not elaborate further,
its a waste of space..

its friday alrdy.!
and yet i havent completed my sketchbk drawings..
-faints-
die le lor..
gail's my tutor =.=
oh no...
-bangs wall-

team NYP's outing with coach on sunday =)
ooh la la!~

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can't get to sleep...
idiot laas.

i'm speechless.

AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M VEXED.!!!!!!!

read patricia tan's email just now...
TIAN ARH!~
what should i do?
the thought of changing course...
the thought of meeting her face-to-face..
how should i answer her questions asked during the appt.?
frankly, i dunwan change course..
i want to give myself 2nd chance..
but i've got to consider my future as well..
I HATE CROSSROADS

ate dinner with nyp ballers at yishun..
my unce just had to call and spoil my mood.
*&^%$#@
lengthy lecture from him outside the door...
i'm being victimised here,
someone pls save me.!
pressed to quit bball...
all the *&^%$ things that really frustrate me.
F-U-C-K
now i dont even know how to attend tues trg & wed's friendly..
how i wished i could be happy...........=(

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updates.!~ UPDATES.!~ UPDATES.!~ =)

FRIDAY
celebrated chunli's b'dae after SMU match at NIE...[btw, its a mock one =)]
jas lee bought a mini-cake on team NYP's behalf, & chunli's face kena cake.! LOL
by none other than TANG EN..hahas!
ate tgt at AMK's S11...

SATURDAY
began preparations for chunli's surprise b'dae party..
our dear chunli was caught off guard,
SO ITS A SUCCESS.!~ YAY!!
*clap**clap*
sprayed confetti on her, burst balloons in her room..
everybody came, including jas lee & yiwen,[my nc senior] =)
mahjong session cum audi session cum karaoke session..
cut cake, ate KFC for dinner..
played the dunno wad thumb game,
so FUN.!~
drank quite alot of sips of ice cream soda+volka =))
everybody did the "wo gai zhen me aii nii~" action. LOLS
damn chui can.!
went home with grace,yaqi&jas teo
couldn't attend zaakira's invitation to her hse for hari raya,
i'm so sry.

SUNDAY
collected the *work* from alicia at AMK mrt stn...
weird laas =)
went straight to jt's hse...
bumped into cecillia at khatib mrt stn...
bought "breakfast" for jt,
even though it was afternoon alrdy =)
first to reach.!~
scared of her dog at first... but my heart melted after sometime..
first time stroke a dog.!~
then chunli&yaqi came..
watched resident evil..
damn scary+gross la.!
*shivers*
did some*work*
went downstairs to have dinner...
tang en & ivana were late..
watched resident evil2..
went home with chunli =)


btw, my mum said that i HAM BIN during the night..
singing hokkien songs 0.o"""
OMG. My xing xiang.!

MONDAY
sch reopens.!!!!
OMG, went to sch see wendy tan for repeating studio project 1..
heng now dunnit portfolio...
but she take away the hamster...=(
draw location only like abit siian. sighs
ate McDonald's with alicia..
lect from12-2,
bumped into nyp ballers..
namely chun,elaine,edwina,ivana,jt&herfren..
lunched tgt,
at MACs AGAIN -.-
LOL
and wads funny, is that
i bumped into a "ghost" 3 times..
her name's tanyaqi. HAHAS
oso bumped into cecilla 2 times,
sock hwee once..
so gay-ded laas =)
went to popular with alica..
then she LOST MY CARD -.-"
dunno how she do that sia =)
but she paid for the replacement thingy, so ...
yeah.!~ new card tks to alicia.~~LMAOS
instead of doing *work* at my hse,
she forcibly[read: FORCIBLY] wann teach me drawing skills =.="
she damn scary sia..
LOLS
watched the 9pm show,
ending was crap though..hais

TUESDAY
intro3D lect frm 1 to 3...
supposed to go little india/chinatown wif alicia for studio project,
but she JUST woke up at 3pm...
DOTS.
quite pissed off,
lucky ivana peii me eat lunch at north canteen =)
decided to watch match at SP...
but first need go cut my hair..
as usual, disaster lo..
ivana almost quarrelled with the hairdresser sia.
LOLS
have to accept my so called "new hairstyle"
.......................................
trained down to dover with ivana,jt&her fren..
coach & jas teo were also at SP..
ITE win SMU by 1 pt after drawing at full time..
NUS win TP ....
so its ITE vs NUS in ivp finals..
while watching the match, felt the agony..
the agony of not being in the semis..
how the ivp ended early for us =(
but its time to look forward once again, to the new bball season.=)
thanks pris&grace...for everything both of u have done for team NYP..
once a teammate, always a teammate =)

btw, learnt smth from watching the matches...
maybe i shuld try out the moves i've thought of one day..=)
excited alrdy.hahas

on the way home, jas lee accidentally kicked my injured ankle -.-
tian arh!~
jas lee, you're forgiven. hahas
i think i should let my ankle heal first before i play ball bahs =)
trained home with ivana


happy b'dae coach!~

TUESDAY
gonna have a dental appt tmrw at 9am..
well, technically its 8 hrs from now ..
lols..
okay, that's all ..
cyaz!~

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went to alicia's hse ytd after pre-sem meeting at nyp.
forgot to tell my ah ma i left the hse alrdy,
made her worried for whole afternoon.
sorry ah ma =(
did the *work* at alicia's hse..
tang en & yuanshan were there too..
then cabbed to sch after alicia's new sofa was brought in.


IVP:
1st match----NYP vs NUS
28 67

dunno wad to say of this match...nyp just played horribly, that's all..
same thing for me, rebounds were missing =(
sprained my ankle

2nd match---NYP vs NP
53 69

tried my best alrdy.
again, mistakes aplenty all over the court.
underbasket,free-throws, and most importantly,
nvr help out/cover for other team mates...
just kill me..
really cant think properly on court.
played almost full game ytd.
until coach subbed me out in 4th quarter last few mins...
sat beside her, really wanted to tell her in the face:
" jiao lian, wo yao shang chang."
i really wanted to get on the court, fight for wadever fighting chance we have left
to go into the semis..
so desperate that i pu for every ball..
so desperate that i didn't care whether i'll break my ankle..
it just wasn't enough, i guess
and when jt fouled out, was back on court.
but too late to turn things round alrdy..

tell me,
why do we always let our consistant attendance in trgs go to waste?
and why do we train so hard,
in the end just to break our own fragile hearts even more?
i know im not supposed to think this way,
but just cant help it.
*bang head against wall*

*yanling, pls get out of this mess, otherwise u'll do the unthinkable*

i really need some self-therapy now..
perhaps i should go find more buses to take,
so that i'll have longer time alone..
need to san san xin.
personal joke. =p

alright...
todays match against SMU...
have to win by a margin of 20 pts to go into semis..
GOD, pls let the miracle happen.
i'll still try my best today.
no matter win or lose,
let us be happy for once when playing ball..
that is all i ask for now.


anw....HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CHUNLI.!~

Labels: happy b'dae chun~

TODAY'S THE DAY.!
GD LUCK EVERYONE~

later must eat banana =)


should i tie my hair/ cut it today????

found this on internet...maybe shuld try this :p


Rebounding Drills

On a strictly physical level, rebounding is an explosive act that involves the contracting and tensing of the leg muscles. Then, jumping upward by straightening out those muscles. The higher you can jump, the better your chance of getting the rebound. Not everyone has natural jumping ability; however, everyone can improve what jumping capabilities he possesses. The following drills will help you improve your jumping ability and lateral movement.

Leg Bounds
This drill will develop strong muscles in your upper legs. This gives you the explosive power needed to leap quickly and continuously. The drill goes like this:
1) Stand at an end line with your legs together.
2) With your arms at your sides, bend your knees until you are in a half-squat.
3) Jump out as far and as high as you can, thrusting out your arms and straightening your body.
4) When you land, end in the same crouched position and take off again with your next bound.
5) Continue these bounds until you reach the far end line.
6) Grab a ball and shoot 10 free throws, then bound back.
Start by doing this once, then gradually increase the number until you can do it five times each session.

Squat Jumps
This drill will develop tremendous leg strength. Remember to jump as high as possible on each jump. Perform the drill as follows:
1) Stand with your feet shoulder's width apart.
2) Put your hands behind your head, lacing the fingers of your hands together.
3) Drop to a half-squat position and then explode upward as high as possible.
Keep your hands behind your head.
4) When you land, begin the squat-and-jump process all over again.
Continue until you have completed 25 jumps. This constitutes 1 set.
5) Do 3 sets and shoot 10 free throws between sets.

String Jumping
This drill will help develop quickness, endurance, and power in your legs. Perform this exercise as follows:
1) Place two chairs about four feet apart. Tie a string between them, about 12 to 18 inches off the floor.
2) Stand sideways on one side of the string with your feet together.
3) Hold your arms at your sides and flex the knees until you are in a half-squat.
4) Explode up and over the string using your legs and arms for power.
Land on the balls of your feet.
5) Repeat the motion and jump back over to the other side.
Do this continuously for one minute, keeping track of how many jumps you performed.
6) Grab a ball and shoot free throws for one-minute, then repeat two more times.

Labels: IVP day

woke up, and almost had the worst dose of reality dished out to me.
I COULDN'T FIND MY AH MA
be it next door or downstairs...
usually, she take morning walks,
and come back by 10am,
BUT she just didn't, even after 10.30am today.
when i opened the door,
i fervently wished that she'll nvr be lying unconcious on the cold hard floor
or lying in a pool of blood in the kitchen =(
heaved a sigh of relief when i found no traces of her in the hse,
but was almost scared out of my soul when i turned around...
I SAW MY AH MA CARRYING THE CHAIR OUTSIDE THE DOOR, READY TO THROW IT AT ME.!
wa lao. come to think of it, the situation damn drama la.
my ah ma actually thought im a burglar trying to rob her hse in broad daylight -.-"
heng i turn ard, otherwise i'll be knocked out le.
LOL
din noe my ah ma was so garang.

however, i really felt fear when my ah ma was missing.
it just goes to show that im insecure deep in my heart.
im scared to lose my ah ma, especially since she old alrdy
and yet have to cook&take care of my bro&i,
instead of the other way round :X
i know i've been neglecting her for a wk alrdy
so i guess i must try to talk to her more this wk..
the purpose of me learning CPR was also partly due to her as well..
IF[CHOI.!!] she happen to collapse at home, at least i might be able to save her until the ambulance come,
given that she has a history of heart problems..


okay, enough said..


came online, and cursed the new timetable when renee told me.
MY WEDNESDAYS & FRIDAYS ARE GONE.!
wednesdays have to go sch by 8am -.-
whereas fridays end at 2pm...
SAD-DED =p
and wads worse, SCH reopens next wk =.="
OMG laas.
3rd time unlucky:
read sch email, discovered have to repeat studio project frm wk1-9.
if fail, then its BYEBYE!~ to SIDM & NYP =.="
.....................................................................................................................
i seriously hope that life is not a joke anymore. *sighs*
thus, the morning's Triple Threat encounter.
HAHA


just now, my 4th uncle msg-ed me
saying that "we're gg KL 4days 3 nights"
wth =.=
hello.?! i'm in poly, so i cant just leave everything behind to have a mini holiday?
besides, he didn't even ask me for my opinion, whether im gg or not..
he practically assumed i am gg...
yeah, its nice to have an uncle who wan bring us overseas,
but when i told him i'll be missing 3 lectures & 3 lengthy tutorials
for the whole duration of the trip,
he said dun care -.-"""""""""
now what am i supposed to do.?!
with a GPA like mine, i'll rather not go.
YES, I'M NOT GOING.
confirmed, dun care whether he like or not.
im not gg to KL just because i add up the nos.
cos 3 in a rm[my ah ma,me&bro]
furthermore, if i dun go, high possibility my ah ma wun go as well..
so if bro is going, there just might be a slight chance that ah ma might leave me behind and go
and i just know that my parents are more than happy to be rid of either me or bro even for just a day =)
sacrificing my studies just for a trip?
no, i think not.=p

trip to orchard's been cancelled. cos raining.
lol...so can have more time to finish *the work*
later gg sch take bus to NTU..
IVP starts today...
guys having match, ours tmrw.
but i also wanna see how other girls teams fare..
ooh, so excited alrdy =))
cant wait to get out from the blocks.!

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ytd went to jing tong's hse to work&play =)
was supposed to meet REEESSSVY for movie, but i really broke =.="
so sry mates..but enjoy ur holidays now that ur promos are over =)
ate at chong pang, but cheng ting store wasn't open =(
ate duck rice, and its the 1st time i must say that the duck rice is NICE.!~ LOL...cos i usually avoid duck rice like the plague, dunno why...
only duck i eat is my ah ma cook de or else its duck porridge nia =p
anyway, chunli,elaine,ivana,tang en,alicia& me went..
jing tong's hse is so cool.got platform in living room de =))
watched cats&dogs.. super funny laas.
elaine left early, then rest of us went downstairs to eat zhu chao..
3/4 of curry from the fishhead curry was left over. GUESS wad?!
we played zhong ji mi ma =.="
omg, i kena 3 times so have to drink 3 ladles of curry..
but jt worse...she drank 3 ladles + 1 chilli.LOL
the rest all kena 1-2 times only =)
my uncle kept on asking me to go home, so i went home early,
while the rest continued mj-ing and jt watched man utd VS wigan..
I WANN SCV IN MY HSE TOO.!
missed bus 85, had to wait bloody long time for the next one...
heng i nvr kena lecture from my uncle when i reached home =X


seriously, i sometimes find that going out & coming home is like russian roulette.
why?
cos it always depend on luck to see whether i'll get scoldings anot.
imagine facing 5 adults instead of 2(parents) whenever u're at home
and IF u do smth wrong, its like u strike jackpot liddat(scolding), combo attack.LOL
maybe i should start wearing steel plates all over my body, so that i can "reflect" all attacks. HAHAS!

anyway, got a shock when i woke up this morning.
the clock read: 9am
i was like--------- !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????
OMG.! late for trg >.<"""""
scrambled up, ran to bus stop,
couldn't flag down a cab -.-
what rotten luck..
took 159 instead(waited bloody long time too)
heng coach nvr punish me. phew.
trg was the same, only 9 ppl attend..
went home with pris..
later my 4th uncle's coming...
dunno wad he's gonna buy...smth like the golden pillow..?!
hope it's delicious..


PPL, IVP's in 2 DAYS TIME. let's all jia you k? =))

reminder:
9 oct[tues] NYP vs NUS 8.45pm
11oct[thurs] NYP vs NP 7.30pm
12oct[fri] SMU vs NYP 7.30pm

venue: NTU-NIE press hall

watched KOPI-O on channel 8, 10-11am...LOL... i think re-runs are much nicer to watch...can huai nian the characters =)

went to AMK hub to meet elaine& alicia...walk walk le den go north canteen...
cos TRG day mahh..

i personally think i suck during trgs...cos like feel abit unmotivated [dunno why] then my brain really not functioning =(
eg: play pass&cut, but i end up blanking my whole brain out then cause yaqi&edwina run si zhe.!
damn idiot laas..
hais...feeling pessimistic alrdy.
its good to have expectations, but when u fail to produce the goods that ppl expect from u, then u're a failure.
saying sorry doesn't win matches. its the actions that make winners out of ppl.
i seriously need to buck up.
feeling a need to bring out the best in me where it has laid dormant for dunno how many donkey yrs le
slping volcano.! =)

on the way to YCk mrt to eat dinner at cheers after trg, alicia hurt her foot.. POOR her. quite a deep cut, den everyone waited for her parents to come...but she very funny laas...use tang en's phone call her own phone =.= LOL she's alright alrdy, but still hope she'll be fine. *prays*

came home by cab[my mum's fed up with my coming home late alrdy] then my wallet really empty =.=" tmrw how???! omg laas think have to borrow $$ from ah ma le...but so...paiseh, cos she so old le, then i still borrow $$ from her =S HAIS.

saw elaine's nick on msn..den saw her blog... i hope all is well with her.. dun be sad le.

OKAY. so in 8hrs time, i'm gg to learn CPR -.- its very impt to me to know how to save ppl, so i guess i'll love the course, though abit pricey laas. hahas.
just now finally added chunli as fren in audi...LOL, dun get addicted to the game hor!~

finally.! construction finished. LOL

wait till got time to make a much better skin though. =)

anw, these few days super busy.
bring ah ma go check up, go morning walk etc, housework and stuff liddat
then nyp ballers oso come my hse...play mahjong and secret gathering.
haha.
very fun with them ard jiu dui le.

lazy to go into details, but can go blog-hopping to find out more. =p

till next post, cya!~

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