MAN UTD 1 BARCA 0

YES.!!!!!!!!!

man u VS ?? in champions league FINAL =))))))))))))))))))

i'll definitely make sure to camp at somebody's house with cable TV
when FINAL starts =p

did i mention....?
last time,
i liked paul scholes instaed of david beckham.
LOL.
yayness 8-)

Labels: champs league final

it took a dream to wake me up from an endless slumber =)

dreamt of the wonderful times
i've spent with cleaven,bryan&vivian at the studentcare center when we were young....
the happy times,
and the times when i dunnit to worry about anything in my life =p

sometimes, looking back into your own past does help.
its to keep yourself in check,
and to discover how much happier u were in the past as compared to now..
back then, nothing was holding me back whenever i wanted to voice out.
now, i've got to take people into consideration,
so much so that sometimes,
i've got to bottle them up,
and i bet they could've filled a million bottles.
thank god that i havent snapped =)

dreams are silly in a way,
but at least it has brightened up my day =p

Labels: past dreams

seething with anger now.

yue kan yue bu shuang.!

got consolation in the sense that
at least now got more ppl who feel the same way.

but saddens me that things have come to such a way...

Labels: sighs

today is a BORING day=(
eat.sleep.play.work.

ytd went to visit ah ma in the afternoon.
i dun think she's going to be out soon...
saddened.
trained down to nyp,
stopped by city hall to buy my lunch[beer battered fish from chippy]=)
reached nyp, so many girls for trials,
and many guys playing at outdoor court =.=
rained on and off,
which is so ANNOYING for 2 reasons-------------

1)i have to keep carrying all the stuff to and fro outdoor court when it rains

2)i made a bet with GOD =)
[on the way to sch, the sky was dark, so i made a bet:
rain= win POL-ITE
nvr rain= no win]

and it proved to be undecisive,
cos it rained, then stopped =.=
come to think of it,
i really didn't know that i actually bothered to amuse myself.
LOL

after trial, had to rush home immediately
cos my mum was giving me an ultimatum:
now or never.
so naturally, chionged home in a instant.
heng nothing happened.

[but the secret will be let out sooner or later...
i feel alive & well while trg,
except when i've got to sprint and jump alot.=(
i really must find a solution to this problem]

i have many many things to say...
but sometimes, the people involved
should realise it for themselves without being told.
self discipline??
PUI.

Labels: same old stuff

FREAK.!!!

just realised i've missed my endocrine appt. at 10am today....
no wonder was feeling like i've missed smth impt,
but couldn't rmb until now,
which is 15mins before midnight =.=

hais.

anyway, had to run errand for mum for 5hrs...
went to buy groceries,
cook soup @home =.=
i think my part-time job now is to cook.
LOL
totally dun have time to do desfd =.=
speaking of desfd,
met gerald inside lect theatre...
had a chat, then break 5hrs doing the errand,
then went for color theory lect at 5pm...
afterwhich, peiyun&the girls came to pass me the white gouache&swatches..
THANK YOU!

ytd's color theory was horrible by my standards,
cos my painting sucked.
and my WHITE gouache is used up,
whereas my BLACK gouache cap was stuck =.=
lol.
then i kena ms choi yin,
who kept staring at me as if im like some alien liddat.
yeah, im repeating,
and i'm definitely not proud of it.
i can assure you that i'll give everything i've got to get A.!
-fighting spirit-


seriously, everything is so much better now.
they halved the painting charts for color theory,
while desfd straight away jump to exercise 1,
unlike last year, we had to do the cross-hatching stuff on the 1st day...
and the most important thing is,
the lects are becoming less boring as compared to last year.
at least i understand the concept better...
however good these may sound,
there's a catch----------------------
almost all the seats are filled up,
so i have difficulty in finding a single seat luh.
imagine being an outcast on survivor=]

some ppl are so double-faced,
that it leaves me speechless.=.="

and some really dont use their brains either.

*kicks their ass*

trivial things blow out of proportion,
serious things go by unnoticed.
idiots everyone.
........................................................................................................................................

anyway, my timetable for sem 1.

Mon: 11-1
Tues: 11-12, 5-6
Fri: 11-2

its so annoying on tues,
whereby i've got to either stay stuck in sch for 5hrs/
go to&fro frm home&sch=.=

and did i mention that i've got no class??
its so lonely la,
aided by the fact that i'm joining diff classes for both modules.
-faints-
i wish sem 1 will just fly by in like 3secs.

1

2

3

omg. i'm still stuck here =]

i dunno whether to announce this,
but i think my ah ma's really in a bad shape right now.
her system's gone haywire alrdy.
i really dread the day when my worst fears come true=(((

first was the problem with her kidneys,
then water in lungs,
next, anemia
now blood in stools,
which is actually stomach bleeding.

just now, my mum was talking abt this to my 2nd auntie,
who's a nurse,
and somehow,
i had an ill feeling that
her days are numbered...
theory of internal bleeding,
and my mum made me feel worse when she told me:
just let her eat whatever she wants.......

sinking feeling.
imaybeabouttolosetheonepersonwhoraisedmeup='(

Labels: dreadful news

okay,
today's quite a significant day...
1st time wearing contact lenses.!~
at first very enthu...
until i was stuck at the optical shop for 1hr=.=
my degree so chim,
until i cannot put the contacts properly on my "pupils"
had to lean so close that my nose was pushing against the mirror
-faints-

rushed down to sch,
hoping to finish the boards, but couldn't..
in the end, trg was cancelled,
but bad news came lo.
my ah ma was warded into sgh again..
at first my uncle tell me the situation as if my ah ma was gonna be stuck in ICU liddat,
but hengheng she's staying in a normal ward under coronary care =.=
phew.

didn't eat much today.
guess i wasn't feeling hungry at all bah
only meal was a treat @ delifrance by uncle...
and pocky on the way to sgh..

just came back from thai village restaurant,
which is at kallang leisure park...
dinner with suyi jiejie,
who had a stop over in singapore enroute to penang.
havent seen her for quite awhile,
cos her job requires her to fly everywhere on earth.
what a cool job~~
sharksfin for 9ppl=200bucks.
-faints-
i'll never even think of gg there even if i had money to spend,
because sharksfin is smth which i can do without=p
while waiting for the dishes,
watched free fireworks...
today was singapore flyer's official opening ceremony,
and the fireworks were wonderful,
though not as beautiful as national day de la=)

anyway,
gorgor treated me to yoghurt.!~
name was yoguru..
never heard of it,
but quite nice luh.
i shall go bowling and play arcade at the leisure park someday.
who wanna join?
LOL

okay, i shall go and do the boards for club crawl.
oh yeah, speaking of crawl,
when i entered ah ma's hse just now,
saw a giant black lizard.
as in L-I-Z-A-R-D
totally freaked out =.=

Labels: thai village restaurant

first things first....

my family's decided to engage a maid next door to take care of ah ma,
so everybody gathered next door last sunday..
and there were 5 pages of maid profiles
which were obtained by THAT snob next door.
everybody flipped through the pages,
so did i, out of curiorsity.
and then she suddenly appeared beside me,
and said loudly in front of others:
eh! maid is i decide one arh~ not YOU decide de hor.!
remember....is i come back and face her leh...etc


wadthefuck.
i did not even mention a single word while browsing through the pages,
and yet she has to do this to me.
as if i wanted to choose liddat..?!
stared at her coldly,
and for once, she stepped away after receiving the full force of it.
i am so appalled by her behaviour nowadays,
i just wished that i could strangle her now and then.

1min later, she was speaking to everybody of the maids in a barbaric manner,
imposing her own brand of propaganda,
trying to advertise that she is the "right" candidate to decide which maid to hire..
which i dare to say, ruffled a few feathers then,
to my amusement.
she clearly doesn't know what's the meaning of shutting up and sit in a corner quietly.

another drama soon unfolded in the kitchen,
when my mum was preparing the food for dinner.
4th aunt, who NEVER helps out whenever she's here,
suddenly felt "inspired" to help out,
i had an instinct that smth is gonna happen soon.
and it did.
my mum wanted to fry omelette,
then 4th aunt insisted that putting onions would taste better,
and that she always does it at home.
so she went to get the onions and began cutting them,
then she began tearing just cutting it 1min later.
come on, if cannot cut, dun kea kiang go and snatch the 2 onions away from my mother la.!
my mum wanted to cut them initially,
then duty was snatched away[literally] by her.
and she emerged from the kitchen dabbing toilet paper on her tears,
acting as if my mother bullied her by asking her to cut the onions,
which my mum never did.
gained quite abit of attention, then THAT snob was definitely unhappy
'cos the limelight was taken from her.

for many years, we've done without a maid, and we were fine with it.
until now,
when my ah ma finally had no strength to cook a meal for herself...
the maid is there to take care of her while everybody's at work/school,
to keep her company
and also to do a bit of housekeeping.

but i really dun see why a big fuss has to be made just from the choosing part.
power battle between 2 women,
trying to stamp their authority and capability
through this.
proclaiming that these is for the good for ah ma,
when in reality they dun mean it.
fillial piety comes from within,
not from gifts and sweety words to bluff the elderly.
ah ma knows this, but she yearns for care&concern,
so she closes 1 eye to everything,
in order not to create trouble.

create trouble??
THAT snob wouldn't even talk to her for 3 sentences a day,
while 4th aunt only por her.
i rather she do smth about it than to leave it at its current state.
otherwise, its really gonna be explosive when ah ma is no longer holding the family tgt.

-faints-
what a shitty household to live in.


secondly,
i've decided to play for kg ubi kembangan at youth cup.
i can use this chance to find my old stamina back,
and also to improve my skills.
it'll be interesting to see whether i can match up to other centers at youth cup,
since it'll be a gauge for POL-ITE & IVP too.
i can't wait to be back to my best again=)


thirdly,
ytd was gym-ing session.
i find that gym is so much tiring as compared to normal training,
dun ask me why.
maybe due to lack of cardio vascular exercises bah..
on the whole, i felt that i wasted it,
because self discipline vanished from within me.
slacked around,
no motivation at all.
*kick myself*
must learn how to clear the mind.


fourthly,
compass point's KFC is undergoing renovations...
i miss the days when the team'll go eat KFC after trgs.
it should open in 1wk time.


fifthly,
recontracted broadband service.
waiting for the free installation of mio tv.
i wished it was starhub instead,
then i can watch live football matches..
speaking of which,
MAN UTD 2 ARSENAL 1
yay.!~
man u will win EPL title & champions league.=))))))


lastly,
i've bought contact lenses.!
which is like finally...
discovered that i have astigmatism
which i never had before.
anyway,still have to wait for the optical shop to call me.
faster come~~

Labels: updates;killer stare;contact lenses

somebody,
PLS.PLS.PLS.PLS.PLS.
become my punching bag for a day.
i badly need one now=(

seriously, does growing into an adult really befuddle the brains or smth??
every friday, my cousin comes next door after sch with her friends
for english tuition,
which, in my opinion,
is utterly useless.
because i've always felt that english is smth
which i can pick up
while reading books and through daily speech.
thus, $$$ saved.


but,
the most important point is....
that my 4th uncle&aunt should just cancel the tuition


why? BECAUSE...


despite their high education,
they dunno wads called consideration.
my ah ma is so old alrdy,
yet they push their child to her every friday,
expecting the elderly to go downstairs to fetch cousin+friend up,
then provide food to a grand daughter
who wouldn't automatically call "ah ma" unless prompted.
worse still, now my ah ma couldn't even walk 3 steps
without wobbling to the sides.
and is in no condition to cook for herself.

imagining it now's like---wad the fuck?!
these kind of things such as respect should be instilled into the mind from young.
so shitty whenever im around,
cos it makes me feel that the world has gone insane.
MORALS.!

and it would have continued this way,
had it not been for me,
who heng heng free on fridays last sem.
and who ended up sick at home for 3 months.
thus having all the time in the world to take over the duties.

but have they thought that:
what if yanling's not at home?

no they never.
they took things for granted,
treating me like some sort of babysitter,
subject to their whims.
during the time when ah ma was in hospital,
i had to stay at home specially to look after my cousin.
afterwhich, followed a dinner with my 4th aunt.
it just felt like im accepting bribes from them...
and the whole thing made me feel that they are trying to buy my heart with gifts,
just so that they can be assured that their daughter is "being taken care of",
and also to pacify me if i ever felt angry with the arrangement,
which i really did feel unjustified.

the reasons they gave for next door as location of tuition was logically acceptable then,
but its totally "morally unacceptable" now.

now they expect me to be to be at home every friday,
just for convienence's sake.
this is so out of the question,
because i've sacrificed 6mths worth of fridays alrdy!
i'm human,
and i've a life to live for,
not to be wasted on selfish ppl.

what they need is a mirror,
because what they want to see is themselves in others.

and what the house needs now is a maid.
because i cant be at home 24/7 now that sch's reopening soon.
and also the LADY next door doesn't even bother to sweep the floor.!
went over today to accompany ah ma,
and all i've stepped on were hairs&ants...
-faints-

how much longer before i snap??!!

Labels: circumstances

sometimes, i really wonder,

am i making the right choices?


only time will tell?
ya, this is bullshit,
cos by the time u realise its wrong,
its too late for amendments..


brains and heart----
which to choose?
its all rhetorical questions, really.

Labels: wads the right choice?

1 week, 3 days.

the amount of days spent in sgh.
apparently, the doctors refuse to let ah ma be discharged.
the prob was due to the veins in the kidney kena blocked,
and that there were traces of protein in the urine.
worst of all, her blood pressure is like volcano-----200+
goodness..0.0

i'm so freaking tired alrdy.
but still, i want to continue this way
for the good of ah ma's recovery.
at least she's got someone to talk to at the hospital.=p

my uncles have been discussing about hiring a maid.
yes, there are pros & cons,
but everything just have to wait---------------
seek the approval of ah ma first.

okay, i'm gg off to see her again.

Labels: sgh;ah ma

i'll rather have nobody to care for me,
than to have sinister ppl surrounding me all day,
trying to be nice.
when they're just trying to buy my heart with gifts..

let me repeat:
i'll only have respect for those who're worth respecting.

these 3 months at home....
i rather wish that they were spent at sch.
being at home allows me to see more clearly how the family functions.
the worse become worst,
the good become clueless.
i nvr expected to see everything unfold before my very eyes, each day.
sometimes, its better not to know anything at all.

i can't believe i've just announced that i'm actually looking forward to sch reopen =.=

BLOODY mind games.!!!
they're really driving me crazy.

someone, pls get me a "get out from jail free" card.

as said,
visited my ah ma in the morning.
supposed to ta pau chicken porridge,
but i came out late so bought it at compass...
was running late,
then i also scared that she'll be hungry,
decided to cab down instead.
waited freaking long at the taxi stand=.=

boarded the yellow top taxi,
the uncle was very nice=p
but theres a catch-------------
we almost banged directly into the walls while travelling inside the tunnel at CTE...
super scary!!
horrible scraping sound that i hope nvr to hear again.
thank goodness he swerved to the left in time...
otherwise......[u know la...choi!]

anyway,today happened to be my 4th uncle's off day,
so both of us accompanised ah ma till 1plus..
when we wanted to leave the ward,
witnessed a rescue going on...
apparently, an indian woman visitor fell at the door..
looked very serious,
so they sent her to A&E..
and there was some white liquid on the floor.
she must've probably slipped on it..
poor thing =(

long ride back to sengkang..
brain was stretched to breaking point,
cos of a headache.
thank goodness my ah ma ordered me to go home
when i planned to stay beside her the entire day=p

came online,
slept a bit.
then it was time for....
4.30pm show.!!~
its a taiwanese drama,
but its rather nice actually=p
its the 468th episode..
and it seems that most of the viewers are the elderly.
LOL

finally got to watch the 9pm show...
just in singapore=p
a bit clueless at first,
but as i watched, began to understand..
yayness.

ytd........

went to visit ah ma in the afternoon.
during which, MOST of the time
was spent answering calls from relatives =(
good grief.
do i look like a walking talking, patient enquiry counter??
0.O"
i can safely bet that my phone bills are gonna be sky-high this month.
-faints-

okay, so i left at 5pm.
waited damn long for the shuttle bus,
and was running late, so called for help=p
my uncle fetched me to outram MRT[green line]
time saved.=)

i thought that trg was supposed to start at 6.15pm,
but i was the only one there =.=
ended up taking 5balls+shoebag+bag
which is---BOO~
since i've taken 7balls in 1 trip before=)
LOL

anyway,
chunli,elaine,jing tong,yuanshan,michelle&xiao jasmine came.
and guess wad??
i trained tgt with them~~
YES LA!
the front part was quite tough,
since it involved running =.=
but managed to persevere through=p
overall trg wasn't tough=)
so i guess that i can start trg from now =)

andandand....................
i'm now officially "noticably fat"
LOL
should start to slim down.
afterall................
i gained 10kg.
which is so embarassing.
haha

"happy hour" at cheers
then went home..


now my whole body's aching from top to toe =p
somehow feel quite happy,
because i pushed myself to see my limit,
so much so that i completed trg without any special breaks..
actually feel a bit of a sense of achievement liddat.
LOL
quite silly actually =)


okay, now gg out to buy porridge+youtiao for ah ma.
she should be able to be discharged today i think...?

i can safely say that today's one of the worst April Fool's DAY
i've ever had =.=

inevermentionthisbefore....
but i realised that i have a neighbour who's a bit of a retard/weirdo.
and it's so scary.
imagine a male staring into the house on purpose
EVERYTIME he uses the corridor -.-"
and OF ALL DAYS,
he decided to stop directly in front of the gate today...
imagine my shock when i open the wooden door and see a person standing there smiling =.=
i swear that i've got white hair because of it...
he asked:
ur pinwheel outside is nice. where u buy from?
i said:
err...ppl give one...

and then he smiled horribly and went to the lift lobby.

just when i thought he was gone...
i ended up taking the same lift as him
-faints-
he said:
neh! [pointing to the no smoking sign in the lift]
outside can smoke la..?
me:
err...uncle, cannot la..[praying door opens faster]
him:
ya lor! govt say cannot smoke, so u dun smoke arh~
me:
err...ya...[OMG.]
really scared the daylights out of me..
he left the lift first,
and turned to look at me as if im some alien.
-shudders-
i think i should place a chair behind the wooden door for safety purpose =(
________________________________________________________

went to NYP
to submit medical report to chris chia.
went to find ms pat tgt, but she not in sch =.=
but now i know that i'll have my modules updated by this wk.
HOORAY~
and then it rained.
BOO~
________________________________________________________

visited ah ma @ SGH.
but she wasn't there..
waited 1hr,
during which the relatives of the woman opp ah ma's bed arrived..
and they dont have manners,
made such a din,
and the grandson is so ill-manned,
shouting at his mother to give the seat to him
whatsmore, the daughter is ard 19+,
and still dont behave decently..
fighting with the bro all the time.
and they made fun of the maid=.=
goodness.
wads the world coming to??

ah ma finally arrived,
and she ate some longan and strawberries which i brought for her.
she seems normal,
but really dunno what the doctors trying to prove leh.
1 time check brain,
next time check heart,
then check stomach..
poor her.
she's been there since friday.
plsletherbedischargedsoon.
_________________________________________________________

went to vivo buy jellybeans
before meeting yuanshan at bugis.
bought card&chocos for yaqi.
trained down to simei
where we met chunli&elaine.
took shuttle bus to CGH.

it's saddening to see the tears
rolling down her cheeks
when we arrived.
how i wish that we may somehow,
be able to take away the pain for her.
she can neither eat/drink much,
cos of no appetite.
mobility at ease is almost 0%
when even the slightest movements pains her.

with this kind of heartfelt thoughts,
i feel that growing up aint fun anymore.
growing up means happiness,
whereby u meet lots of ppl
and have lots of fun
and u get to make ur own decisions&stuff
but does anybody take into account
that more pain and suffering and responsibility is on the way?
its like----u wanna help, but u dunno how to help.

its like as u grow,
the brain provides u with different perspectives to a situation.
maybe now u say:
im going to help the old lady who has fallen down
but 10yrs later, u may think:
i want to help, but what if i break her bones unwittingly?
then its better for me to just wait till help comes.
but then again, what if nobody comes along?

so i've tried to do what i can do.
magazines to flip through at home when bored,
chocs to cheer her up.
hope she have a speedy recovery.

pls get well soon, yaqi.
____________________________________________________________

heard 'breaking news"
actually, i kind of expected it,
but yeah,
its quite "breaking" luh.
wadever the choice,
its yours.
nobody can stop u.
everyone is responsible for their decisions.

Labels: growing up aint fun anymore

okay,

APRIL FOOL'S DAY~

so its......


HAPPY 18Th BIRTHDAY SHIHUI !!

and.....

JIA YOU YAQI !!

hope to see u alive & kicking after the op =)


hmm...too many things to say,
so roughly type them out..

ytd morning went to visit ah ma ..
supposed to be discharged today,
but dr guna said she has to be warded for another due to high blood pressure =.=
hope she gets well soon.
left for vivo after that.
AND PPL WERE LATE.
LOL
only jia wen,cheryl,qing xiong & i were punctual..
ended up waiting at kopitiam for the rest =)

took monorail to sentosa.
went to siloso beach,
played vball,frisbee and captain's ball.
oops!
did i mention that i'm not supposed to be playing rigorously for now??
omg. =)
ended up with sunburns all over T.T
_________________________________________________

oh ya,
i've just received my medical report.
so i'm going to sch to submit it to admin office..
then sun bian go ask ms pat which class im in next sem =.=
i'm class-less for now.
_________________________________________________

how did i spend my 3months at home??
i think it can be summed up as: slacking.
LOL
actually not really la,
i got:
1)watch anime,
one piece,prince of tennis,d gray man, you're under arrest,akazukin chacha, studio ghibli collection and manymany more

2)read manga,
one piece, d gray man,slam dunk.

3)watch dramas,
yi tian tu long ji, return of the condor heroes, just in singapore, 4.30pm show on channel 8,and manymany more

4)watch movies,
881,stardust,spiderman3,200pounds beauty

5)do portfolio,

6)improve my cooking

7)learnt abit of spanish+jap

8)watch the news everyday =.=

9)do jigsaw puzzles=p

andiforgottomention......................
my mum use my table as ironing board.!
ahhh
she took away my jigsaw on my table,
and started ironing clothes on the table -.-"
omg.
and she was the one who broke the board in the first place...

it broke on friday night,
and she repaid the faith in the new ironing board 2days later,
when we went to vivo's giant to buy the new ironing board..
and we were stuck there for a whole 1hr,
trying to decide which brand to buy =.=

i bought jellybeans!!!!
whee~~

Labels: sunburnt;well wishes