my ah ma has landed up in hospital.

what a shitty week.

whereby i've got to be nice and considerate
when others are just enjoying shooting their mouths off
or being subjected to sinister mind games
=.=

so, what's next?!

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The things i saw today...
The things i hear from ppl's mouths today...

somehow just seems idiotic and somewhat disgusting..

Am i mad, you say..?!
Of course not.
I'm perfectly fine in the head.

how i wished i've had the chance
to turn my head away
when stupid things are done in my face.

it seems to me that the word 'simplicity'
will forever be gone from my surroundings.

disappointment is a certainty.
hopelessness too.

i've decided to be more vocal from now on.
just so that everyone will be more tactful in future.

now i have doubts about some ppl.
are they what they appear to be?
i hope so.

"power play" is definitely non-existant in my dictionary

why is the world so dark?
i wonder .

spare me the agony.

im battered enough alrdy.


24th March:

Happy 18th Birthday, Limmy!!!!!!!!!!!!

BIG discovery.!!!

johnny young bosch is hosting veoh's animetv.....

and he's a former power ranger to boot =p

woah....

how about asking 'tommy' to appear on tv also??

LOL

gogo power rangers!

i just wanna say..........................HAPPY BIRTHDAY.!~ to:
13th---zi qian gor gor[cousin]
14th---sze hong gor gor[cousin]
15th---Ng huiying aka da nai
17th---sharon

LOL.
we 3 cousins all born in a row =)
but they're all older than me!
25&29 le still take angbao..
GOODNESS.
muahahas =p
sometimes, i really wonder..
am i supposed to be a male or female!?
cos the males of family is just the 2 of them+my bro
so maybe i should just swop birthdays with bro=)
OF COURSE, THIS IS ALL RUBBISH THOUGHTS.
iHaveNoProblemsWithMySexuality..............


here's an update ppl...

Good News:
i have been discharged from National Heart Centre yesterday.
Bad News:
i am restricted to light exercise

Good News:
start of rehabiliation
Bad News:
my relatives are against basketball.

Good News:
the endocrine doctor said that my thyroids are getting better on the day of my birthday.
Bad News:
the blood test at A&E the other day showed that i have triple the amount of white blood cells that a normal person has.

Good news:
i was cleared from danger.
Bad News:
i had to worry about my health for 3 hrs after the blood test.
there was no blood on my left vein 0.0
ended up having plasters stuck on both arms.
and i hiam hiam avoided being warded =.="

Good News:
dosage was reduced.
Bad News:
i had to eat vitamin pills. i've checked them secretly,
and they're prescribed for ppl with depression.!
now the doctor's trying to see whether i have depression anot.
what a birthday to remember
-faints-

Good News:
i went for a haircut on the 13th.
Bad News:
i was forced by my relatives and ah ma.

Good News:
i felt 18 before i entered the salon.
Bad News:
i wished i was non existant on earth after leaving the salon.
not to mention, even trying hard to find smth to cover my head

Good News:
i made it out alive from the salon.
Bad News:
i totally looked like a retard. i'm better off having my head shaved bald.

Good News:
i escaped from everyone's eagle looks while outside.
Bad News:
no amount of happy things can heal my wounded soul.

Good News:
rain was pouring down at home.
Bad News:
i tried hard not to cry.

Good News:
i went to Science Centre with 4th uncle's family.
Bad News:
i had to endure other ppl's stares.

Good News:
everyone enjoyed themselves.
Bad News:
i couldn't let out my despair.

Good News:
watched Dinosaurs Alive! at omnitheatre.
Bad News:
i'm afraid of heights and fangs.

Good News:
4th uncle finally noticed my unusual behaviour.
Bad News:
i can't tell him anything, when they're the ones who made my self esteem go plummeting down with no hope of retrieval.

Good News:
i'm finally safe at home with my parents.
Bad News:
i cried buckets of tears.

Good News:
i slept a little.
Bad News:
i had 3 nightmares in a row about the day's disaster.

Good News:
cousin came to stay in the morning next door
Bad News:
i'm reminded of the previous day's incident.

Good News:
i didn't scream or shout at anyone.
Bad News:
4th uncle personally came for dinner. and also to pick up my cousin..

Good News:
nothing happened during dinner
Bad News:
i was lectured by 4th uncle after dinner.

Good News:
he talked his so called 'reason' with me.
Bad News:
i am labelled as a 'disappointment' cos "i'm making a big fuss."
i figured that nobody in this family ever saw me for who i am.
they forgot that i am human,
and that i have feelings too.

Good News:
my uncle finally came home. i was saved!
Bad News:
the lecture had lasted 1hr which did even more damage to my soul.
i broke down in front of everyone.
silent hatred.

Good News:
my friends didn't know of this. and i have been asked to go out.
Bad News:
i have no mood to even take a look at my hp.
sry ppl.

Good news:
i have been staying at home since.[apart from yesterday]
Bad News:
now my ah ma's hinting to me that i should bring her for a HAIRCUT.

Good News:
i have received the letter saying that deferment is successful.
Bad News:
the doc has written me a memo, which i believe has no use anymore.
now i have to go and apply for a medical report-.-

Good News:
i've just seen my GPA.
Bad News:
its almost the same as last sem.

Good News:
that's because of deferment.
Bad News:
now i have to accept reality.
that i have to be retained a year.

Good News:
i have no grades apart from studio project 1.
Bad News:
i don't even know which class im in next year.
guess i'll have to call up cc.

Labels: bad news:hairy affair, good news

today is a special day,
so i shall refrain myself from ranting anything bad abt TODAY =)

haha.

almost everyone i knew wished me happy birthday.
THANK YOU PPL!!!!!!!!!!


anyway,
went to attend trg in the evening.
7-2ppl=7ppl.
weird equation??
LOL
cos me&yq weren't trg,
but there were still 7 ppl.
haha.lame i know =)
was outside the gym
when elaine suddenly burst out from the gym and said:
yanling.! pei wo yi qi qu toilet.
so i did, unknowingly.
came back, and was SURPRISED by everyone laas.
LOL.
they hid behind the wall.
birthday song, grp photo, presents and cutting cake.
it was mango cake,
but sry couldn't eat cos of the gastric flu =X
but thanks for the cake and celebration!~

photos will be uploaded asap when i FEEL LIKE it.
oops =)
jk la.
its when i get it.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!~

Labels: time to learn driving =p

with regards to last post,
the fried rice was h-o-r-r-i-b-l-e.
and lots of stupid qns were raised =p
it just fills me with incredulity.
-faints-


7th MARCH
was alright until i ate jalan kayu's prata =.=
which my 4th uncle ta pau-ed to ah ma's place.
just ate 1 piece,
landed up in SGH's A&E[again] at 1plus in the morning,
even after being given jab by 24hr clinic's doc...
terrible ordeal=.=
vomitted in the basin at A&E,
had the runs for 7times within 2hrs =X
was put on drip all the way till 5am.
goodness.!
saw and heard things in A&E..
1 drunkard shouting,
ranting everything regarding to terrorism,
although being surrounded by 4 policemen,
1 guy who keeps gg to the counter and chatting up the docs.?!
at first i thought he was a relative of a patient,
but later realised that he was actually a patient =.=
he didn't even look sick luh,
yet he keep pestering the docs to ward him...
ard 3plus,
he tan pan with 1 doc outside my ward..
even the doc was so pissed off with him.
LOL
they actually came to a compromise,
but the doc&nurses ended up having to chase after the guy
just for him to eat medicine..
this kind of ppl also exists...
wanted to be warded because he wanted to skip sch..
-shakes head-
if i were him,
i'll stay away from the hospital for as long as i can.
crazy teen.


9th MARCH
Ivana's birthday!!
happy 19th birthday =)
went out with yq&grace
Grace tom pang-ed us to everywhere =)
cool~~
went to chalet awhile,
then came home.

10th MARCH
cheryl,pei yun & nora surprised me at my hse..
they celebrated advanced birthday with me =ppppppppppp
cut cake, then played game of life..
quite a few LOL moments,
like when nora had too many 'babies'
HAHAHA...
jia wen had co,
so cmi,
but...
THANK YOU!!!
for the billabong pencilcase,
and sry for troubling all of u to come all the way to sengkang,
which is like another end of s'pore to u all..
so i really appreciate it =)))))))))))))))))

happy birthday priscilla =p


11th MARCH
lao saii-ed the entire past night...
heng it stopped in the morning..

went to hougang mall to meet dp&kanitha.
but kanitha was late due to sch.
LOL.
she's super stressed, poor thing.!
and dao ping was the same as usual =p
slacked ard,
then ate tang yuan at the food court,
both of them gave me present.
so touched=)
they gave me:
a card
bottle of clean&clear toner
face mask
a cloth
black sketchbook,
erasers,
andandand.....a packet of tisue paper.
LOL, dunno how it ended up there.
met up with my parents at compass point,
mum bought a cake from polar puff
celebrated with ah ma next door=)
but i cant eat cream&cake.!
sighs.
troublesome stomach..

Qn: If i had a pack of poker cards,
which cards would represent me???

Ans: The Joker

okay, this is a no-brainer=)


25th feb was an enjoyable day =)
celebrated elaine's 18th b'dae @J8
followed by mahjong session at her hse..

for pics and relevant details,
plsplspls go bloghopping for more information =ppp


29th feb: day of treadmill test =o
thought it was easy, but.......
HELL NO.!
made me lie down and
started to use those "scanners" used during ultrasound scans..
so freaky laas.
saw the image of a live heart[which is mine]
and its was...gruesome =(
anyway,
the doc finally came after waiting for 1 1/2 hr,
then the torture began..
make me run till my heartbeat reached 190/200bpm
which is like--almost dying??
playing matches seemed like peanuts o.o
suddenly stop the machine and just shove me onto the bed
and did more scannings.
-faints-

went home,
waited for daoping&kanitha to meet @ nchs.
purpose was to take our art and d&t stuff back,
but mdm ngoh said the sch needed our pots for exhibition -.-
mine was on display.!
shoot, so decided to get the boards instead...
even so, the bloody boards just disappeared o.o"
ended up with nth...
so dp&i toured ard the staff rm..
chatted with teachers and stuff while waiting for kanitha to come..
but d&t workshop was closed -.-
played abit of table tennis,
then this sec3 girl came up with a innovative idea
playing squash with ping pong ball against the wall outside the hall.
LOL
fun la..
then ltr when kanitha came, went to find mrs raja
talk a bit,
then they came to my hse..
its like relieving the old days when we havent took our o's
=)


okay, nth significant happened on sat..


sunday was a pissing day -.-
4th uncle&auntie+cousin came to ah ma's hse..
but cos my cousin got calligraphy class at ncps,
my 4th aunt had to bring her there...
it IS her duty,
but she just came over and said in a false voice:
'yanling, si sim very tired, then anyway ziyuan say she want u to fetch her to sch, so do u mind doing that for me? THANKS"
'you're such a good girl'
o.o
no room for rejects,
brought her to sch in the rain lo..
tgt with bro..
but more's to come..
came home to see her sitting there on the sofa next door
reading newspapers like a tai-tai
while my 4th uncle slept like a log in ah ma's rm laa...
its as if like i'm being treated like a domestic maid....
-faints-

awhile ltr, she went ncps to fetch my cousin...
worse luck, she forgot to bring umbrella along with her,
even when she knew it was a rainy day..
she called next door, but nobody answered..
duh! cos everyone's sleeping?!
had to go to her rescue immediately, since she sounded so panicky..
had to brave through the heavy rain
on the way there, almost got knocked down by car..
i'm still alive, thank goodness..
reached the sch,
4th aunt was chatting happily with another woman...
nvr even acknowledge my arrival even though she saw me..
make me wait for her to finish her conversation
which lasted for 1hr..?
by then, blood was boiling..
so fed up man..
was drenched from top to toe
waited for her to finish talking,
by then the sun alrdy came out..
AND UMBRELLA'S WEREN'T NEEDED

TIAN ARH~~
i dun mind lending a helping hand,
but i'm definitely bu shuang with her actions..
i'm her niece, for goodness sake.!
not a domestic helper.
several things i can close one eye,
but things just pile up lo.
its human reaction.
and its disgusting to see both mother&daughter
spitting into the grass every 10 paces,
the adults are simply teaching their kids the wrong things.

somehow, my uncle next door guessed what happened,
then he angry at 4th aunt..
but he kept quiet lo..
then just as 4th uncle&aunt leaving,
my cousin wanted to eat the love letters..
then the kid cannot open the container,
yet the mother still stand beside her,
nvr even help the poor kid la..
tired of waiting, 4th uncle went to take the car..
then my aunt saw the situation,
shouted for my uncle to come help open it,
when she just beside them lo..
then that's when my uncle blew up..
"what is this arh? there's 2 adults beside her, yet not one help her to open the container.
is it so difficult to just twist the container open that u need 3 ppl to open it?"

when i heard it from my mum[i was at home that time],
its so LOL material laa..
then both women kept quiet..
and still nvr help the kid to open the container until the kid finally open by herself.
-.-
they're both so %$#^*(&@!

after dinner,
was about to go home,
then my uncle spotted a piece of biscuit that attracted a brood of ants
just beside my aunt's legs..
so he asked her to clear it,
suddenly she said loudly:
but its not mine what!

-FAINTS-FAINTS-FAINTS-
just a simple action to clear the thing also lazy to do it.
her sentence also show that she alrdy knew about it
but she just ignore it until someone clears it.....
WHY IS THERE SUCH A PERSON ON EARTH???
she's an inhabitant of the hse leh..
can she really live in a dirty hse?
i wonder...
of course, my uncle cleared it,
but we quickly siam back home to avoid the awful scenario..
then my mum said:
haix..i really pity suee chek, marry this kind of woman..
PRECISELY.

my poor ah ma was reduced to being 90% bedridden
due to her rhuematisim acting up..
then i felt that she should not cook for 1 wk,
so i went next door and asked to speak to my uncle.
i told him that i either ta pau/cater/cook for aunt&ah ma.
so he chose ta pau.
then he go and tell my aunt,
then her face was black lo..
who cares?
as if i'll stake ah ma's life to risk eating the food
by a woman who can't cook to save her life.


Monday:
was supposed to ta pau food for them,
but my aunt called up and said ah ma wanted to eat porridge,
so she asked me not to ta pau
then i said nevermind,
i'll cook,
then she imposed her authority on me and said:
I COOK.
fine...she cook lo,
so i went next door..
i saw smth which just further leaves a bad impression of her to me..
she cook meat with tau you
then she spilt it or did smth to it..
the whole thing cannot be eaten laa..
kena water..
ended up eating:
1/2 salted egg that's been left for 1wk,
1 bottle of chye sim
& 1 can of tau jio
how worse can it get??
to provide an unhealthy lunch for ah ma..
is just so depressing.
had to make do with it,
then thankfully,
dinner was bought by my uncle..
the teochew mui from hawker centre @amk.


bad news.
my ah gong(mum's father) has been hospitalised.
apparently, his condition is so serious that
my tua yi actually summoned all his children to TTSH immediately.
so freaking anxious laa..
when my mum came home,
she said that ah gong had heart attack
cos he cough too much
then experienced chest pains..
thank god he's still alive.

i still havent gone for the blood test =)

today:
my aunt insisted on cooking fried rice.
she doesn't like tau gay,
while tau gay is a must for my ah ma's fried rice.
she actually said:
okay, ni men de shi got tau gay, wo de mei you.
ke yi ma?
wa piang..
then ah ma said nvm, can cook without tau gay..
so i said i'll cook,
but she still demanded to be allowed to try cooking.
okay lo, so i let her.
then she boasted in front of us that last time she study in australia
she cook for herself everyday de..
as if i'll believe lo..
i bet its her roomates who cook.........
if know how to cook,
why nvr even lift a finger
to help out my mum every weekend
to prepare dinner?
and during this period of time when she's at home?
to even help my ageing ah ma to cook a simple meal of porridge?
if know how to cook,
how come she can't even cook a simple dish
such as bak tau you(minced pork&soya sauce)??
it doesn't mean that the doc ask her to stay at home to recuperate
that she has to treat ah ma like a maid,
cooking 3 meals for her and subject to her numerous antics.!
foetus was deformed,so u had to abort it, no choice.
but u dun even feel sad about it,
instead staying at home watching korean drama,
kiao-ing her legs high up facing the tua pek goong.
absolutely no respect.

i've had this niggling feeling that
if she had a child,
it'll turn into her clone.
which is----horrible to even think of.
one 4th aunt is enough, let alone another one up-n-coming
this is the first time i reallyreallyreally cannot see any good points in a person ever.


the lengths a person would go to enhance their reputation............

haix.
i'm gg over now.
hope the fried rice is edible.
i'm not a bad person.
i give chances =)

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