had a dream last night.

i opened a door. saw CAR playing bball at nchs..when they saw me, they ran away. >.<" so i cried. den i went to canteen, and i saw nchs seniors eating happily at the table where we used to gather before bball matches. this time round, i ran away. !!! ran to last time 2E classroom and bumped into REEESSSV...they were normal people when suddenly, they turned their backs on me and treated me like trash. i was stunned and wondered, what did i do to make them this way? and so i wished, wished that i'll be happier in another world..... and THEN, I WOKE UP diaos diaos diaos diaos diaos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i've read somewhere that deams occur when a person is afraid of something or want to achieve something and it is made up of different scenarios in their lives.... and as i began to look back, it startles me. because i was afraid of losing CAR and REEESSSV and being unable to talk to the seniors because i was afraid of them.. come to think of it, i was so silly even to have entertained these thoughts..

but, what i'm afraid of now is that i'll lose REEESSSV and all the ppl i knew as i make more friends at nyp..because i lost my primary sch friends when i came to nchs. and i don't want to allow history to repeat itself once again, because this time, i want to be strong inside. strong.
i dun ever wanna feel so insecure again....
reality always make fun of people.

I MISS REEESSSV AND KANITHA,JASMINE,GUAN CHENG, SHABREEN AND BBALL TEAM.......