i've committed a sin.



worst of all, i don't even know why in the first place.
isn't it ridiculous??


now i'm afraid to face the music later.
people may help me lots and lots of time,
but it'll all be futile because
i've not been helping myself at all.


its easy to say:

how i wish...
maybe...
because......that's why....

but it has happened.

i feel that i've let everybody down.

such is the guilt within me that no amount of fabulous english vocabulary
can ever describe THAT incomprehensional feeling =(

Labels: guilty