Life as yanling has been extremely SHITTY esp at night time.
dontaskmewhy.
maybe my family's hormones are more worked up when night falls. =(

started off the day feeling super good mood,
cos its the 1st time i brought my laptop to sch =)
whee~
its acer travelmate 6292.
super light in my opinion,
until i can fly.
-.-
okay, randomness
HAHA.

set off for sch earlier,
cos wanted to connect to sch wireless network.
but then, everything sort of cocked up,
so sought help from helpdesk
i guess my acc is different from others.
whats worse,
its troublesome.
have to configure this & that,
until blur.
0.0


during manufacturing lect,
im super thankful after working for coach.
cos everything abit here, abit there,
all add up= smth powerful.
heng got cover basics.
haha.

i find that BME h2 is a nice class =)
everybody mix ard tgt,
no barriers or anything.

after bio mechanics,
went to meet ys.
then on the way to north canteen,
met mr leonard loh & mr tan cher tok
=.=
talked awhile,
gave me lots of thoughts floating in my mind.
i'll strive to achieve!~

supposed to have friendly with ITE EAST,
but last min cancelled.
been so long since i felt tired while shooting
-.-
tom-pang-ed coach's car yet again,
this time jt driving.
CONGRATS on passing !~
=)

due to special unforeseen circumstances,
cabbed home immediately.
another example of $$$ fly away
hais.
received hair dryer treatment,
dontaskmehowifelt.
it comes naturally.

because of these trivial matters happening in the backdrop of my life,
it has snowballed into a ball of madness.
i dont smoke,
i dont take drugs,
i dont go clubbing,
what else do u look for in a daughter/neice..?
i feel that by ur expectations,
a pet would be much better.
it doesn't anger u by expressing emotions,
doesn't even need curfews.

i detest loosing control of my emotions in front of everybody,
yet i was damn angry when u called.
no chance for explanation,
churning out lines & lines of useless assumptions & fears about me.
made me almost spewed out vulgarities,
if not for the fact that coach was present.

i think i've reached the period of time when
ppl suffer from feeling 'lost'

basketball was never really the focus
when compared to studies,
so im questioning myself
on the decisions i've made.
are they right/wrong?
time tells.

perhaps i'll ask for a break from trg.

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