hello.


so many things have been happening around me.
im so overwhelmed by it.
hais.



anyway,
here's some updates:

i have received 2 warning letters for desfd,
all because i've missed 3 tutorials =X
i dunno whether u call this "heaven making sport of me",
or "maybe i'm just so lucky" syndrome.
i keep falling sick on fridays.!
its either i've been sick/doc appt.
how terrible it has become for me to even face ms wendy,
whos such a nice teacher.
i finally told her the reason why i havent been attending class last friday,
and she went like
'HAR.! so young arh..'

yeah so young.
the prerequisites for most ppl to have thyroids is that ur family members have it too.
and that u usually get it ard 20+yrs old.
but apparently, im not like most ppl,
and im the only one in the entire family to have it.
so it just sucks big time isn't it?
well, initially,
but now can just hope that i'll never ever suffer a relapse as i did on 2 fridays ago AGAIN.

actually it really sucks big time,
cos my hse phone has been ringing.
my relatives are trying to imply that im running away from sch.
which is entirely untrue.
im being scrutinised in such a manner that
all freedom is lost.

for this morning,
being off the thyroid pills [after the relapse]
has nvr felt so good.
im seriously totally sick of having to pop pills into my mouth,
after doing it for 1yr 3mths.
how i wished it'll be sweets im eating, not pills =p

random: i've missed being tgt with DMD0708

okay, that's school side.
now for bball.

as time goes by,
it has become more difficult for me to even get out of my hse.
telling white lies to my parents has been eating into my conscience
ever since i've started it.
so as to attend bball trgs,
i said that im going to sch gym.
which is partly true,
cos im still gg to sch, but not to the gym.


so i happily attended trgs
thinking that there's enough time for me to convince my mum that its okay for me to play ball.
apparently not,
cos i've tried from mid february until now,
and the only progress so far is that she finally allow me to play LEISURE ball.
and she's begun to suspect me alrdy,
cos i have been returning late.
and i cant help it at all.
with my father's extremely loose mouth,
i'll be interogated by the ppl next door in the morning.
how cool is that?!
camp's in june,
and im not 21.
so she's bound to know that i've been trg behind her back when i hand her the forms to sign -.-
and the location of my hse has been a complication,
with the added effect of my ah ma, uncle and that woman.


unable to keep up any longer,
my performance dipped cos i wasn't focused at all.
i told coach cindy during kem trg 2wks ago wads happening,
after performing horribly during trg & looking out of sorts.
i thought i was in for it when i told the truth,
but luckily she wasn't angry.
instead she asked me to forget all my problems and just relax during trgs.
i know that,
but that particular day was just horrible,
cos the excuse i gave to my father was not strong enough to withstand suspicions.
i was so damn scared of my father stalking me
and confronting coach.

my worst fears were confirmed on sat morning,
when nyp had friendly with teck ghee.
supposed to leave hse 7.30am,
but was held back by my mum until 8.10.
was gonna make a rush for the door,
when my father announced he wanted to go to the post office.
he dily dallied ard the hse for a gd 15mins,
before leaving the hse.
naturally, i waited another 5mins to confirm he's gone,
yet when i opened the door,
he came out from next door.
FAINTS.
ended up taking the same lift tgt,
told him that i going to gym.
parted ways,
had a hunch that he'll follow me,
so i walked fast all the way until nan chiau,
and guess what?
i saw him on the opposite road.
[tearing my hair out]
practically made a dash from nc to traffic lights,
and i bumped into mdm yeo&her daughter -.-
chatted with her on the bus,
then ran all the way from bridge to outdoor court.
so i was alrdy warmed up.

judging from the way the friendly went,
it was as if i wasn't there at all,
cos not in the right mind to play.
told coach lin sin about my situation
and it was kinda embarassing when i told her that
my only talking time with mum was during ironing time =x
which is quite dangerous cos she'll threaten me with the iron =.=
gave me solutions, but i've tried them all.
so i think these few days will be crunch time.

if i could help it,
i wouldn't trouble ppl with my domestic affairs at all.

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